Did you ever walk past a mirror when you are out in public..say shopping at a store for example...and you catch a glimpse of yourself out of the corner of your eye and think "WOAH! That woman could use a nap!"? That happened to me the other day...very disturbing. It got me thinking though...I wonder how other people perceive me. I mean deep down I really don't care what others think of me...unless they are members of my own family. But from a general curiosity killed the cat point of view...I do wonder. I wonder if people assume I've been crying or sick or on drugs when they notice the blood shot eyes i tend to walk around with every day because I've been up at stupid times of the night checking blood sugars. I wonder what they think when they see me stopped with the blood sugar meter supplies out laying on top of the loaf of bread in my shopping cart while getting groceries...checking Emma's blood sugar in the produce aisle of the store because she looks a little TOO pale to me. What do they think when they see me pull out the needle of insulin in the middle of the mall and see me lift up Emma's shirt to get at her belly so I can give her the needle to correct a high blood sugar? I wonder if people who know me feel sorry for me because of diabetes. I wonder if they think that my life is so sad and that diabetes makes everything so much less fun in our house. Do they think that we have it so much harder than them and do they look at Emma and their kids and think how happy or lucky they are that it's Emma and not their child who is diabetic? Do they know that sometimes I wish that it was some other kid and not Emma who has diabetes? These are some of the things running through my head in that split second it takes to catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror at a store.
Who knew my mind moved that fast? lolol...i sure didn't