OK, maybe it's because I am tired....4 hours of sleep will do that to you. Or maybe it's because I am typically and unfortunately an overly sensitive person. Or maybe I am just off my rocker...which is entirely possible................but I have noticed something that I wanted to write about.
I would like to know why there seems to be so much division amongst members of the DOC. Why am I constantly coming across statements made by people that are rude, angry, and a bit self-righteous? Why do we as members of this community find ourselves having such issue with things that other people say...that we will take it to the point of arguing...or belittling...or making it into a competition? Why do I seem to get a sense of elitism...some believing that they are better than others? Why do I find that even in the DOC there seems to be cliques? Why do I find myself feeling like I am back in high school trying to "fit in" or "be accepted" by some of these people?
It's ridiculous to me that we all can't just get along and respect each others opinions and methods of managing this beast of a disease. It's ridiculous to me why we can't come together as a community and focus on being there for each other...supporting each other even if we do not agree or understand where that other person is coming from. It is ridiculous to me that there is such a level of superiority in some. How can other people who are living basically the same exact life as me behave in such a manner? I do not and will not ever understand. Being a member of this diabetic family (in my opinion anyway) should mean a welcome of open arms...a shoulder to lean on with no judgement, a million others to seek advice from as well as share your own advice with. There should be no ignoring. There should be no feeling of hesitation when posting something...fearing what someone else will say in response. We should all be able to live and learn and accept each other regardless.
It really saddens me to know that being nice to others and trying to help them doesn't always wind up being the best decision. It's horrible. If we can't count on each other, then who exactly can we count on?
We all share one common goal.....a cure. Researching, advocating, educating, understanding, fundraising, hoping.....for a cure. That is it...that is all. I truly hope the drama and the snobbiness and the cliques and the nonsense will disappear and we can all take a minute to step back and remember what this DOC should really be about.
Again....I'm sorry if I have offended anyone...hurt anyone...etc. I am exhausted from fighting low blood sugars for the past two days. I just want a safe place to land when I am falling in this D-life and I am disappointed to learn lately that it is just not the same.