I should probably warn you that this post sort of jumps around and completely does not have one particular theme. It probably doesn't really mesh and might not make a whole lot of sense, however it is a great display of the random-ness that is me these days...
I have one line from a song stuck in my head at the moment. It's on a continuous loop and it's driving me insane. Last night, Emma watched "Gulliver's Travels" before bed and she loved it...however, at the very end of the movie Jack Black (a.k.a Gulliver) sings "War". You know the one....."WAR!!! HUH!! What is it good for? HUH!! Absolutely NUTHIN! Say it again!!" Emma loved it and has been singing that line over and over and over again now. I can't say that I ever really hated the song, I mean it has a good beat and you can dance to it...lolol...but I do believe it is now going to be the reason for my slip off the cliff and into the land of crazy-town. If you don't hear from me or see a new post by this time next week, you will now know why. I will most likely be sitting on the floor rocking back and forth mumbling about War and chewing on some crayons or something...lolol.
I have recently discovered that Starburst candy will make Emma's blood sugar skyrocket like nobody's business. I have no idea why. Surprisingly she never really liked them, until recently she asked if she could try one again. Now she loves them. My kid has a sweet tooth, so she has most definitely had her share of candy or goodies over the past almost three years of living with this disease. I have not ever come across another piece of candy, goodie, or anything of the sort that affects her like this. Are we alone in this blood sugar reaction? Once I recognized the pattern after a couple of days of letting her have a few starburst after dinner, I decided to put an end to it and just not give her anymore. I didn't make a point of out and out telling her that she can no longer have Starburst because it makes Mommy mental having to deal with the high numbers later on. I have never wanted to blame anything on her diabetes. So, I very quickly and efficiently finished off the remainder of Starburst so they would no longer be in sight and she wouldn't ask for one. I find it strange though that this one particular food will affect her this way. Weird.
I also wanted to mention that I am now on page 84 of my (totally not a) book thing. I am actually considering looking into possibly maybe someday trying to get it published. I would love to donate the money from selling it to JDRF really. It has made me realize something though. When I was a kid, I would dream big about things all the time. I would think about how I wanted to be an astronaut, a gymnast, a veterinarian, a teacher, and artist. I wanted to go to the Olympics and win a gold medal just like Mary Lou Retton. I wanted to be on the front of the Wheaties box. I wanted to grow up and save the world. Somewhere along the way of growing up, I sort of lost that ability to dream big. I have no idea why....it just sort of went away. Maybe I got too wrapped up in being an adult and married and kids, etc....and that magical ability just couldn't fit in there anymore? In any case, since I have began writing my (totally not a) book...I have started to retrain myself into thinking that it is indeed still ok to dream big. It doesn't matter that I am now 34 years old, married, a mom, have a mortgage, and responsibilities. I am still allowed to dream big. I can still reach for the stars and attempt to do things that seem impossible or silly at the beginning. It's ok. I can do anything I set my mind to. Learning this all over again is really putting a smile on my face, so I just wanted to share.