Thursday, November 10, 2011

I know you

I see you out there...creeping into your child's room in the wee hours of the morning...blood sugar meter and lancet in hand. I see you shuffling over to their bed, bleary eyed and exhausted...still half-asleep. I see you pausing...taking a moment to look upon them and take in their sweet...diabetes is the furthest thought from their minds, and that is the most beautiful sight in the world to you. I see you wipe away that stray single tear that managed to escape from your eye and roll down your cheek. I see your face change from one of love and one of strength, determination, and routine. I see you reach down and choose one of your child's callused and marked fingers and yield one of your tools of the trade...the lancet. I see you poke a needle into the tip and squeeze a droplet of blood out...while thoughts and mantras race through your mind...please show me a good number...please don't be low...please don't be high...please let it be good so we can all sleep safely and soundly tonight to awaken in the morning. I see you wait for the meter to count down and show you the number...the all important...all consuming number. I see you hold your breath for that last moment as the reading on the meter finally appears. I see you lean down and kiss your child's forehead...content and relieved that you were shown a good number...greatful and lucky that this time you won the numbers lottery and are rewarded with a safe child...and a half way decent sleep.

I see you out there. I know you. I know you better than your own family knows you. I know your deepest darkest thoughts, fears, feelings, and worries. I know your joys, your overwhelming pride, your relief, and your victories. I know your grief, sadness, loss, and struggles. I know how much it means to you to see your child see them succeed in spite the face of...type 1 diabetes.

I know you. I know you because you are me....and I am you.


  1. Thanks so much for sharing.. I love it too.. There are many times when I am up in the night and think of the other d parents doing the same thing as me all around the world..

  2. beautiful amy!!!!
    you should superimpose it on one of those fantastic photos and post it that way too.
    you are amazing :)

  3. Amy - your beautiful post has been shared on the Parents of Aussie Kids with Type 1 Diabetes Support Network.

    Right at the moment we are all reeling from the loss of another young life to this disease - a beautiful 17 year old girl from Sydney.

    You know every one of us, and we know you.

    Annamarie x x x x