Today is Random Act of Kindness Day and I tried my best to spread some love around. I wanted to let all of you in the blog world know that I truly appreciate you. I love being able to pour out all of my thoughts, fears, and stresses on here and get support from you all. I started out writing this blog to hopefully reach someone who was just starting out on this path...someone who was lost in the dark, scared, worried, terrified that they wouldn't be able to handle this new life. I wrote it for them in the hopes that my words would give them some comfort in knowing that they are not alone in the dark...I am standing right there beside them sometimes fumbling in the dark for my trusty flashlight to help us find the way to smoother ground....and sometimes I have my giant spotlight held high above my head illuminating the difficult path and making it look like the noon day sun is shining down upon us. Little did I know though that I would also wind up writing this blog for myself. I have found it to be sort of like my little free therapy session. If I am having a horrible time struggling with getting things under "control" and figuring out what to do while bumbling around in the dark hoping to find my footing and solid ground again, I know that I can get it all out here...I can empty out my head...let the words, tears, and emotions flow from my aching head all the way down to my fingers and just get it out. I found myself posting my blog and checking back now and again to see if there were any comments on it...just so I could get your perspective on things...so I could feel that same same...that connection...the love. I want you to know that it means the world to me to read your comments. I think you are all amazing people and I am truly greatful to have you in my life.
So, I started this day by buying a coffee for the person in the drive thru line behind me at Tim Hortons, I hugged Emma and told her I love her and how much she means to me, and I wrote a little note to my facebook friends and family...a little note to try to explain to them how much they mean to me...just to brighten their day. It took me all day pretty much...and it was beyond worth it. My intentions for doing it were to make my friends smile and to make them feel loved and special...but as the day wore on and I kept receiving replies back on my comments to them...I learned one of life's most important lessons.
Doing things for others makes you feel good.
I learned that making someone else smile....makes ME smile. I walked around today with a big smile on my face knowing that I am a lucky girl. Diabetes may have come into our lives and caused an unimaginable amount of pain, stress, worry, and fear....but it has also brought me all of you. It has shown me that I am not alone...I would be lost without all of you. So, I went about my day...did my grocery shopping, even helped an elderly man find some 1% milk in the dairy section, did my D-Momma duties for the day, and lived my normal life....all the while with a huge smile on my face and a warm feeling in my heart. Thank you for making this day special for me.