Sunday, June 5, 2011
A Beautiful Day for a Walk
At the beginning of the route, Emma actually got to cut the ribbon at the starting line. I stood there behind her watching her surrounded by all of the JDRF event people. I instantly got tears in my eyes and my heart felt like it was in my throat. I saw her standing there with the scissors in her hands waiting for the cue to cut...the sun shining down on her sparkling off her hair...she looked like an angel to me...a beautiful, strong, innocent angel. She cut the ribbon signaling the start of the walk and came running back to me with a huge smile on her face. As we walked, I talked with Nadine and looked at all of the people around us. I felt proud...proud to be a part of such an amazing group of people, proud to be walking...step by step symbolically bringing us that much closer to a cure for this horrible disease. I felt happiness and strength. I felt greatful to be walking side by side with all of these individuals who have all done their part to help raise money for a cure for not only their loved ones...but for my Emma as well. I also felt a huge heaviness in my heart...an indescribable sadness. This was our 3rd time walking...our 3rd time doing our part to help...our 3rd time being involved and teaching Emma that it's better to stand up and shout at the top of your lungs what you believe and what you want to happen...instead of sitting idly by and hoping someone else will take care of it for you. I was sad...sad that another year has passed...sad that there is still no cure...sad that all of these people walking beside me still have to fight every day against the beast that is diabetes...sad at the looming darkness hanging over our heads trying to block out the beautiful sun and extinguish our hope for a cure...sad that it sometimes feels like no matter how many steps we take...that cure might never be within arms reach...it might always be just around the corner..taunting us...driving the heart of this Mommy to the brink of insanity on what sometimes feels like a daily basis.
Here's to hoping that this will be our final Walk...our final journey...our final gathering...because that cure really is just around the next corner waiting for me to round the bend and take a flying leap at it and grab hold with everything I've got.
Posted by sky0138 at 9:17 PM