Do you want to know what it's like? I mean do you REALLY want to know?
Ok, I'll tell you.
It's like holding onto the most precious thing in the world with trembling hands...careful hands...cautious and protective hands. Holding on to the beauty and the innocense and attempting to shield it from the storm. You must walk through life carrying this breathtaking gem and as you do your best to savour every moment...every step along the way...you know deep inside that you can't stop all of the dangers. You know deep down in the dark and cold fearful place inside your soul, that it's not really solely up to you. You know that no matter how hard you try or how much you know or how many steps you take or how careful you are with gently placing your hands around this precious weight in the palms of your hands, that the most frightening thing you can imagine could very well come to be.
It's bigger than you. It's bigger than all of us. You know this the same as you know your own name. And yet you soldier on. You soldier on into the depths of the unknown. You soldier on with hope in your heart and fear in your gut. You soldier on with joy upon your face and pride shining through your sparkling eyes. You soldier on because you must....there is no choice...you were never given a choice...it is what it is and you must accept it and keep moving. There is no looking back. There is no room for regrets. There is no time to waste. You take each moment for what it is. You live in that moment...good OR bad...you live in it...you allow yourself to feel it...you hold on to your life's most precious gem with every last ounce of your strength...and
There are moments where it feels like you are trudging through the caves of insanity...running into the walls and fumbling your hands with each step. There are moments where you hold that precious gem high above your head and shout in victory. There are moments where you cradle it in your arms and hold it close to your heart as you watch the tears that have fallen from your own eyes sprinkle to ground all around you. There are moments where the weight of it all is so unbearable that you can do no better than crawl on your knees through the muddy floors of that frightening cave. There are moments where it feels like that precious gem is as light as air and you can't believe you almost forgot you were even carrying it. There are even moments where you relish in the chance you were given...the opportunity to even be able to carry it.
There will come a time when you will realize that you must gently set down this gem. Place it delicately on the ground beside you and watch....see how this amazing thing of beauty has grown and flourished from inside your hands. Your precious gem has been watching from within the safety of your hands and she has learned. That day will come where you will walk beside her...holding her hand...cheering her on...drying her tears...listening to her fears. You will marvel at the brilliance that flows from her spirit. You will walk. She will walk. Stride for stride...breath for breath...moment for moment.
You will walk as one.