It's easy to get caught up in the sadness...the anger...the depressing realities that we face everyday. It's easy to get sucked in to that madness and find yourself caught up in a vicious cycle of swirling thoughts that leave you feeling like you are drowning in a pool of muddy despair. It's easy to just let those thoughts take over and ruin the moment of the day. It's easy to curl up under a blanket and pull it up over your head trying to hide from the unfairness of it all and the inner battle of not having the life you want or the life you always dreamed of. It's easy to get to that point. It's far too easy...in fact, it's kind of scary how easy it is sometimes.
It's much harder to stand up to yourself and fight those demons trying to bring you down. It's much harder to choose happiness sometimes. It's much harder to see the light...to see the positive...to see the things that go right...to see what blessings we really have. It's much harder to keep our sights set on the horizon and really convince ourselves that it's good...it's ok...we are doing just fine. It's much harder to stay in that place...stay in the light.
Diabetes can suck the life right out of you. It can sometimes make you feel like you are drowning. It can bring out feelings in you that you never knew you were capable of having. Jealousy, fear, melancholy, hatred, depression. We spend our days living in such extreme conditions sometimes, that every emotion is that much more heightened...that much more intense.
The way I see it though, is if we are strong enough to fight this disease every single day....then we should have the confidence in our abilities to choose the harder path and seek out peace and happiness. It's not easy...but we are so much stronger than we give ourselves credit for. We are so much stronger than we know.
*i wrote this for me tonight...because I was feeling myself stumbling over onto the easy path of sadness and unfairness. But I thought, maybe I should share it...in case someone else out there was feeling the same way tonight. We can do it...we can choose the harder path...I will walk beside you and hold your hand every step of the way if you will hold mine too. We are strong. We can handle it together, I promise.