Be greatful for what you have. Seriously...look around you and be truly greatful.
Sometimes I get caught up in thinking about all of the things I wish I had. Not simply material things...but LIFE things. Obviously I wish my kid didn't have diabetes. I wish our family had more money to be able to take time off of work and go on family vacations whenever we wanted. I wish we could take off for the weekend and fly somewhere just to get away together...to visit my family back home in Wisconsin. I wish I could afford to go back to school and finish my education...get a degree...a job I love.
I sit here on my couch and look around at all that I have. I have insulin in my refrigerator, blood sugar test strips in my closet, an insulin pump attached to my daughters stomach. I have food in my cupboards....I HAVE cupboards! I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, and a husband...daughter...and cat that love me more than anything else in the world. I have a few friends that support me...love me...and make me laugh. I am healthy and my family is healthy. I sit here typing this on my iPad....I have a freakin iPad.
I was chatting with friends today who actually have to fight with pharmacists and insurance and the government to get test strips for their child with diabetes. It's a struggle for them to be able to get the most basic necessities needed to manage this disease. While, I, on the other hand just waltz right into the pharmacy...tell them what I need, pay for it, and I'm on my merry way. I send the receipts in to insurance and I get ALL of the money back. I have never lived one single day as a D-Mom worrying about how or IF I was going to be able to get the supplies I need to keep my kid alive. I am naive in the struggles. I'm spoiled. I'm blessed. I'm greatful.
I sit here tonight realizing that I have way more than I need. I am far luckier than I even realize sometimes. I am blessed beyond belief. I have the tools needed to better help me keep my child alive every single day.
My life isn't perfect...but I don't think there is really such a thing, to be honest. My life is perfect for me at this particular moment in time. Whenever I find myself getting stuck in that vicious cycle of thinking about what I wish I had, I'm going to try to REALLY open my eyes and see all that I actually have already.