You don't need much to make it in this life. You don't need to be a genius. You don't need to have a college degree in mathematics (although somedays I feel like it would certainly help a little!) You don't need to have nerves of steel and ice water running through your veins.
You want to know what you need to make it in this life with diabetes?
You need tenacity. You need determination. You need such a huge amount of stubborness that it is almost bordering along the lines of crazy. Speaking of which...you need a little crazy. You need to be ok with making mistakes, because you will. You need to be able to recognize that each of those mistakes you have made have all actually taught you something that you didn't know before.
Perhaps most of all, you need to believe in yourself...even when you don't. Even when you feel like you can't do it. Even when you feel like you have no idea what you are doing....believe in yourself anyway. Force yourself to do it. Believe in yourself even when no one else does.
Believe in yourself!
There is absolutely no one else on the planet who knows what you are truly capable of...except for YOU. So, give yourself a break and just believe. Believe that you can do it. Believe that you will make it. Believe that you know what you are doing and that you can make it work. It may not happen this moment...or at all today...or even next week. But if you believe in yourself....it WILL happen eventually. You will make it work. You will make it through. You will show your child that anything is possible as long as you try. You will show them that the only true mistake they can make in this life is to sit idly by and do nothing.....not try...not give it their best effort. If you can't find the strength to believe in yourself for YOU....then look at your d-kiddo and do it for them. Show them that you believe in yourself and they will start to believe in themselves.
In this humble D-Mom's opinion, that is one of the most important things we can pass on to our kids...the ability to believe in themselves.
So, take that moment to be mad...to be frustrated...to cry...to feel lost and incapable and like you are in over your head. Take that moment and breathe.....then start believing. Believe in yourself. I believe in you. I really do. I know that you can do it. Just believe!